Friday, January 28, 2011

Foolishness

Have you ever felt like a fool?  Have you said something that showed your ignorance, your immaturity or inexperience?  Then have been left feeling like an idiot and inept?  I have!  That was me today.  At bible study people shared about their response to the recent Queensland floods and I was overwhelmed with emotion.  To see friends upset and hurting was upsetting to me.  Then it was time to pray and cried and couldn't speak properly.  Afterwards I felt embarrassed for my 'show of emotion'.  Thinking,  I didn't make any sense, I'm supposed to lead everyone in prayer and I sound like an idiot!  What good am I! I felt like such a fool.  But what was the real reason for my embarrassment?  Honestly, I was worried about how I looked and what others might think of me.  The reality was I was more concerned about my pride rather than coming to God with a humble heart.

How easy it is to have pride sneak into my heart so subtly and how I must be constantly vigilant to pray for humility and to confess my pride as sin.  I can be so blind to the pride in my heart that it will often go unchecked and unmonitored.  Humility is the antidote to pride.   I find hope in Isaiah 66:2 :  "This is the one I esteem: he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word.".  God is pleased with a person who is humble and respects and obeys his word.  David also prayed and understood what God truly desires "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise." (Psalm 51:17).

Do you have pride in your heart that needs confessing?  I urge you to pray for God to reveal to you the tendencies for pride in the areas of your life and for the humility to confess them as sin.  Then remember God's great promise of forgiveness through Jesus,"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. "(1 John 1:9).

Praise God for the gift of grace!!!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Stepping up

At church this morning during the children's talk, Rev Rob was speaking to the children about the flooding in Queensland and asked if any of them had been affected.  Several children responded, then in a loud clear voice my daughter says, "We got a new tv!".  How embarrassing!  Slightly off topic but honest nonetheless. 

So yes we brought a new tv early January and since then we have been revisiting some of our favourite movies.  This past week we have watched The Lord of the Rings trilogy.  One of my favourite scenes is in The Return of the King (part 3 of the trilogy) where Aragorn gives a moving speech to the men at the black gates.  Here's the scene for you :



Right from the beginning of the story in The Fellowship of the Ring (part 1) Aragorn, a ranger from the north, denies his calling as the true king of Gondor, being the heir of Isildur.  Only in the final stages of the story where it appears that Sauron's evil dominion on Middle Earth seems inevitable and the odds are stacked against all free men, does Aragorn accept who he really is and takes up the calling to reclaim his heritage.  In the scene above, Aragon steps up to his role as king and seeks to inspire the men of Gondor to stand against evil and fight for what is good. 

God wants us to step up to the calling he's given us.  What has he called us to do?   He has called us to be his light in the world (Matthew 5:14), to make disciples of all nations (Matthew 26:19), to live lives worthy of the gospel (Philippians 1:27), to put on our new selves (Ephesians 4:24; Colossians 3:10), to put on the full armour of God (Ephesians 6:10).  The list goes on. 

So where are you in this scene?  Are you the Aragorn in The Fellowship of the Ring who vehemently denies his calling to step up and reclaim his kingship; or are you the Aragorn in The Two Towers who continues to resist the call that is getting louder; or are you the Aragorn in The Return of the King who has submitted to the call to be who you are?  And who are you?  You are saints in Christ Jesus.  Redeemed, restored, renewed and forgiven.  Sainthood is not given to you posthumously because of your good deeds or character,  it is a state of being that is given to you when you accept Jesus into your heart as Lord and Saviour of your life.  The Apostle Paul tells us this in 1 Corinthians 1:2 "To the church of God that is in Corinth, to those sanctified in Christ Jesus, called to be saints together with all those who in every place call upon the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, both their Lord and ours" (ESV).  We know that the Corinthian church were very immoral and Paul criticised them yet he also addresses them as "sanctifed" and "saints", not because of their conduct but because of their relationship to Christ and what Christ has done on the cross on their behalf. 

So will you step up to who you are in Christ?  Will you heed his call in your life this year?

At the end of CFBS last year I gave each of you a bookmark with the words from the song "Lifesong" by Casting Crowns and left you with two questions to ponder.  What was your lifesong for 2010 and what will be your lifesong for 2011?  For me I have felt God calling me to "step up" in ministry. Over the holidays I was taken by this verse from Isaiah 41:9-10,

"I said, "You are my servant; I have chosen you and have not rejected you.  So do not fear for I am with you, do not be dismayed for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"."

In the midst of my feelings of inadequacy, fear of failure, fear of becoming time poor, I felt God really  encouraging me for his work.  When I focus on Christ my fears and worries seem less but the trick is to stay focused on him and not myself.  As soon as I rely on myself, the fears creep back in.

God may be calling you to something big in 2011 or to something small.  Whatever it is, the important thing is your response.  What will you do?

Rebuilding lives

Before going onto  my next post I felt I needed to take this moment to acknowledge the hurt and heartache that many have been experiencing in Toowoomba, Murphey's Creek, Grantham, Ipswich and Brisbane.  Plus everyone up north who were in the grips of flooding before this week. I pray for courage and strength to endure the hardship of rebuilding lives from the very beginning again after losing everything.  I praise God for the outreaching of arms from complete strangers to help those affected by the flooding.  I pray for your hope Jesus to infuse peoples hearts to help them not despair. 

My words feel so trite in the face of what people are experiencing but at the same time I felt I couldn't continue blogging without recognising what others have  gone through this week and continue to face in the coming days, weeks and months.

Please add your prayers here also if you want.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

The power of words

Just a few day ago an unknown homeless man has been shot to fame through a youtube video that went viral.  I was brought to tears when I saw a news article on channel 7 about this man Ted Williams.  , Ted Williams, who after several hours of this utube video going viral was offered a job at a radio station.  He was overwhelmed, numbed and truly thankful, but how his life changed in just a few hours.

I know that there is alot of bad and dangerous issues surrounding such sites as facebook, myspace and utube but the story of Ted Williams made me think about the opportunity for positive outcomes using social networking sites.    Going more locally, a mum has set up a scheme through facebook to ask for help to  families ravaged by the Queensland floods get essential school supplies for children starting school in a few weeks see Adopt a Family Flood Victims .

The power of speech is phenomenal.  In the bible, James speaks very clearly and plainly about the danger of the tongue.  "Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark.  The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body.  It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell" (James 3:5-6).  Very strong words but for a good reason.  We all know what if feels like to be stung by some careless words spoken at an inappropriate time.  Such words and feelings can haunt us for years.

In her book, Disciplines of a Godly Woman, Barbara Hughes writes about how propriety, our behavior, is not just about the way we dress and modesty but also about our words and attitudes.  Quoting 1 Timothy 3:11 "  In the same way, their wives are to be women  of respect, not malicious talkers but temperate and trustworthy in everything", Barbara demonstrates how scriptures define godly women as being respectable because their words are not malicious but temperate (restrained) and trustworthy (true). 

Author Jerry Bridges, in his book Respectable Sins, lays it on the table when he has a go at how easily as Christians we accept gossip, slander and other forms of negative speech.  We know the bible says not to do it but it's a sin that is often 'allowed' or tolerated  in many circles.  But the bible says " Do NOT let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen" (Ephesians 4:29, emphasis  mine).

Jesus was just as clear and direct when he accused the Pharisees of their hypocrisy!
"Make a tree good and its fruit will be good, or make a tree bad and its fruit will be bad, for a tree is recognized by its fruit.  You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good?   For out of the  overflow of the heart the mouth speaks.  The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil  things out of the evil stored up in him.  But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken.  For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned. (Matthew 12:33-37).


Jesus is saying that it is all about the state of our hearts and our words are constantly revealing what is there.  We can try really hard to show others how good or righteous or perfect we are but the time will come when our guard is down and what we say will truly reveal what our heart is actually about.

I found these 2 chapters from the books I mentioned as quite sobering.  I admit, I've been guilty of all of these things but how do I change?  I think it goes back to what I had mentioned previously, a matter of consistency.  I know circumstances always change but my response shouldn't be dictated by circumstances, it should be determined by God's word living in me.  I'm realizing that my heart needs to be consistently in God and submitted to him in all things then what comes out of my mouth, actions and attitudes will be consistent with the will of God and with his word.  So perhaps the real issue for me is learning to be before God which simply means daily reading his word and spending more time in prayer.  There's no magic  formula or bible study or special committee.  So I have decided to read through the whole bible in 2011.  Does anyone want to join me and spent this year traveling through the bible and rediscovering the simplicity of hearing God through his word?

Friday, December 31, 2010

Attitude is a choice

On a recent trip away, I was struck by the attitude of J when we were playing with a new toy golf set.  After a few failed efforts she emphatically plonked herself down and exclaimed " I can't do this!  It's too hard.  It's just not my thing Mummy."  I was taken aback by her quick defeatist attitude and annoyed at her lack of effort before just giving up.  Where had she learned that attitude?  Didn't she expect that it would take some practice before she could get the golf ball into the hole?  Did she think she would be able to do it immediately?

From my perspective as the parent I could easily see that practice will help her achieve the goal of putting the golf ball into the hole.  But from a 4 year old's perspective the task seemed too difficult initially so it was easier to give up and believe that "it wasn't her thing".  I explained to J that if she choose to have the attitude of "I can't do it" then she will believe that she wouldn't be able to do it and so won't put in any effort to persevere.  But if she choose the attitude of "I can do it!" then she is more likely to believe that she is able to do it and would be more willing to practice and work hard at the task. After teaching her that our attitudes are made from the choices we make, I then got J to say aloud in a big voice "I can do this!" and coaxed her to have another go at putting the golf ball in the hole.  She failed but repeated the phrase "I can do it!" and she managed to get he ball into the hole.  She kept on repeating this phrase aloud and then hitting the ball, sometimes she succeed and sometimes she didn't but she did overcome her bad attitude. 

How easily it is for us to have a bad attitude about our spiritual life. Do any of the following phrases sound familiar?   I can't pray!  It's too hard.  I just fall asleep.  Or bible study - yuck, I hated studying at school, it's just not my thing.  Mission work - who has the time, that's what I tithe for!   Or my all time favourite (used extensively by myself) I just haven't had the time to read my bible today I've been so busy and now I'm just too tired, I'll catch up tomorrow.  Bad attitudes and complacency are the result of choices  we have made.  Yes. I agree, praying can be awkward and challenging especially when you feel there is no answers to your prayers, but we are supposed to practice prayer and to pray often.  The Apostle Paul tells the Colossians to "Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful " (Col 4:2).  He also says to the Thessalonians "pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus "(1 Thess 5:17).  We are called to persevere in faith when life gets hard and we are promised  the reward is the maturity of our faith (James 1:3-4).  We are told plainly that every effort should be made to add to our faith goodness, knowledge, self-control, perseverance, godliness, brotherly kindness and love.  If we have these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep us from being ineffective and unproductive as disciples of Christ (2 Pet 1: 5-8).

As Christians we are saved through faith in Christ alone but he has also made us co-workers in his kingdom (1 Cor 3:9).  We are called to use the gifts he has freely given us for the work God has called us to do for him(1 Pet 4:10).  God doesn't say it is easy but he does say it is worth every blood, sweat and tear.

So are you making choices like J that are leading you down a path of bad attitudes which are hindering your relationship with God and spiritual growth?  If so, why are you making those choices?  Are you tired, overwhelmed and exhausted like so many mothers.  Are you being stubborn, wanting to do your own thing rather than submitting your heart, hopes and desires to God's and then being willing to do as he asks?  Perhaps it means reorganising your mornings so they are less stressful and allows you a moment to read your bible.  Or maybe is means approaching prayer with a friend to help you stay focused and accountable.  Take some  time to think about the choices you are making and how they are effecting your approach to God and then make some changes.

Come on and share some of your attitudes, choices and changes you'd like to make.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Out of routine

Hi Everyone,

I don't know how this will go as I've never "blogged" before but I hope our sharing here will keep us encouraged spiritually over the holiday break.

It's been quite busy for me since we broke up from CFBS for 2010.  And what a year we had!  God certainly tested me at various points and had some very timely lessons to teach me.  As hard as God's pruning is on my life the benefits far out weigh any immediate or temporary pain.  Praise God!   Although I do remember some tantrums I had during this process - not very mature of me.  However, I'm excited about 2011 and believe God has good things planned.

Since finishing up CFBS this year I've had a lovely holiday , have done multiple Christmas pressie shopping trips, tried to do washing on the odd day that wasn't raining, had Emily's 2nd birthday accompanied by Paul's family, Paul has been back at working interviewing for a new English teacher.  The list goes on.  I have not had the usual commitments and so I've had the freedom to do things more at my leisure and to juggle errands with Paul.  Yet I have found myself struggling to have time to pray, read scripture and bible study.  Without my well oiled routine  that I've taken all year to cultivate, my spiritual life seems to have fallen off the wagon.  When reflecting over why this is the case I realised how dependent I am on Christian props and my general routine and I am confronted to look at my true relationship with God when everything is stripped away.  Who am I when no one is looking?  Am I like the white washed tombs that Jesus accused the Pharisee's of being - apparent holiness on the outside but completely sinful on the inside.  Is my life one that is full of integrity before God - integrity of worship and submission of all my self to God?  To answer in truthfulness,no, it's not.  I feel God wanting me to live a more consistent life of faith - contentment and faith focused and resting in Christ independently of circumstances.  And also to up the ante and not to allow complacency to rule my heart.

The Apostle Paul says " for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.  I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty.  I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.  I can do everything through him who gives me strength. " (Philippians 4 :11-13).  Thank goodness Paul said that contentment was something he learned as this gives me hope as I can learn it too.

So, I commit to memorising this bit of scripture and will pray for it in my life.

Let me know what you think.  Is routine or no routine significant for you?  What is God talking to you about?  What has 2010 been about for you?